I think i can deal with things really well. Good, bad, hard, easy... That's how i grew up. Divorced parents, re-married parents, re-divorced parents, deceased half brother, accidents, drugs, sex, fights, girls and girlfriends, so many step siblings i cant even count, a DUI, and numerous falling outs with God. I CAN HANDLE THINGS. But for maybe the first time in my life i feel this hill may be too steep. You're a bitch sometimes... you say it yourself.
Staying on topic, i can easily say that i've had to go through alot with you. Lying, cheating, etc. I can deal with that; obviously i have. But when i am constantly chastised for every single thing i do, the world seems to suddenly frown upon me. If you didn't want me to do something, you should of told me. And if you didn't want me to say anything, you should of told me. It seems to happen more and more. Everyday you're chipping away at my heart, and i truly don't know how much heart is left in this chubby fellow. I just can't deal with it anymore. Yes im a prick, yes im an asshole... At least i can justify myself by telling you all of that before i even got serious with you. All we did today was fight. And why? Because you can't seem to find it in yourself to let go and enjoy something so insignificant as talking with your friends. THATS RIGHT. They're just as much yours as they are mine.
SNOWBALL EFFECT.
RANT RANT RANT. I don't seem to find joy in it anymore. I don't seem to find peace in it anymore. Will it end? I dont know. Will it prevail? I dont know.
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